I gone and done it again… pissed off the moral gods and goddesses of FetLife with my opinion.
A person on my friends list posted a “writing” about an relationship style in the BDSM community and abuse (emotional abuse to be specific), after reading it (a couple of times) I interpreted it as saying, the BDSM/Leather community should police peoples relationships and not show respect to Masters who are determined to be abusers by the general opinion of people watching the relationship from the outside.
(Update: That person quickly unfriended me and blocked me. They threw a temper-tantrum when others started to agree with me. lol I think that’s funny)
I really don’t agree with several aspects of this individuals post:
1) It is not the BDSM/Leather communities job or place to police anyone’s relationship from the outside.
2) Abuse is completely subjective, especially in the world of BDSM. I personally have seen several relationship styles and S&M scenes that would be abusive to ME. I would be upset and traumatized if I experienced the interactions that I observed. The doesn’t mean that I have any sort of right to call the Master/Dom/Top an abuser. I defiantly have no place to try to save the sub/slave or convince him/her to leave the relationship.
3) The most inflammatory part of my response: The victim is not with out responsibility for their abuse. Let me explain before you jump on me…
It is my opinion and my personal experience that the first time someone abuses another it is all on the abuser, but if the victim does not leave they now have some responsibility in the future interactions they have with their abuser. The victim always has a choice, weather good or bad there is always a choice.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that the blame is split 50/50, the choice to take the action out weights the choice to stay in the situation. But it’s not as easy as good vs. evil.
Many abusers have experienced abuse them selves, so at what point are they no longer victims? What if they don’t know a better way, as is often the case? Are they evil?
At what point does it turn from a disagreement to emotional abuse? In BDSM, at what point does it turn from humiliation & degradation fetish to abuse? Where is the line? If a Master makes a comment “Oh, I love my little whore. You’re such a slut.” and he means it as a complement but the slave doesn’t like it, they need to say so, don’t they? What about the newb watching the interaction, they might not like it… should they now not respect that Master?
“May he who has not abused throw the first stone”: I don’t think people really understand what emotional abuse really is. We know what makes us individually feel bad, sad, and hurt, but we don’t get to make that decision for others. We know that society says what is and is not ok (BTW, hitting, whipping, and ruff sex are not ok with society… could be considered abusive). It can be as innocent a giving someone the cold shoulder or saying “You should know why I’m mad.” It can be arguing just because you want to win. It can be anything that makes someone feel like less than or hurt.
A definition of Abuse as per Dictionary.com
Abuse
[v. uh-byooz; n. uh-byoos] Spell Syllables
Synonyms Examples Word Origin
verb (used with object), abused, abusing.
1.to use wrongly or improperly; misuse:
to abuse one’s authority.
2.to treat in a harmful, injurious, or offensive way:
to abuse a horse; to abuse one’s eyesight.
3.to speak insultingly, harshly, and unjustly to or about; revile; malign.
4.to commit sexual assault upon.
5.Obsolete. to deceive or mislead.
noun
6.wrong or improper use; misuse:
the abuse of privileges.
7.harshly or coarsely insulting language:
The officer heaped abuse on his men.
8.bad or improper treatment; maltreatment:
The child was subjected to cruel abuse.
9.a corrupt or improper practice or custom:
the abuses of a totalitarian regime.
Notice numbers 1, 2, 3, and 7. Think back on the last heated argument you had…
What about co-abusers? It’s actually more common then society tells us. A couple gets into a disagreement, one takes a cheep shot at the other… in retaliation the “victim” (lack of a better word) takes another cheep shot. Both walk away angry and hurt.
Lets not use the word “abuse” for a second… it’s loaded and automatically puts people on one side of the fence or the other, lets use the word “violence”. Emotional violence.
Is it violent to tells your partner “You always do [X], you’re just trying to make me mad.”, “I wish you’d take out the trash! You’re so lazy.”, “Don’t be stupid, that’s not how you do [x].”, “If you loved me you would do [X]”,”You can’t do anything right.”, “Why are you so stupid?” or just silence and dirty looks… get the point? How do you feel when someone says those things to you? Bad? Backed into a corner? Forced? Did you throw an insult back?
I have been abused by both romantic partners and non romantic associates in my life, the only thing that stopped the abuse was me making a choice to end it, weather it was putting my foot down and telling the individual to stop or me leaving the person completely. I was the one who ended it. If someone from the outside said, “Hey you’re being abused, you should leave.” I would have told them they had no idea what they were talking about (and I did say that). It wasn’t until I was ready to make the hard choice that I could really see what was happening. It’s taken years to bring my self-esteem to the point where I can see that I was being abused, that it was violence… IT TOOK YEARS! The person and people who “victimized” didn’t do it intending to harm me, they simply knew no other way to express what they were feeling (weather their feels were related to me or not).
I have been the victim and I have been the abuser… O, yea… I’ve screamed, manipulated, and called names. I’ve hurt people and probably emotionally scared some. BTW, I am not unusual in that duality. If you have never hurt someone with your words if you have never yelled at or insulted someone out of irrational anger, if you were never a bully in school, then you are not human.
No one deserves emotional abuse and help should be given when it’s asked for, but abusers are not the devil. They need as much care and understanding as the victim.
I was accused of “victim shaming”, that is also violence and abusive. It doesn’t feel good to be ganged up on, but it would feel worse to fold and skulk away into a pit of self pity. I refuse to have a victim mentality, abuse didn’t just happen to me… I chose to get into a relationship, after the first incident of abuse I chose to stay, I chose to accept the “I’m sorry” or I accepted the no apology at all, and eventually I chose to leave and turn my life upside-down. Life and things don’t happen to me (our anyone else), we all have a choice… some times all choices suck and are equally unpleasant, but there are still choices.
People don’t like my opinion, that’s fine. Live your reality the way you want.
But next time you are mad and screaming or even if you’re being passive aggressive with the silent treatment to your partner, friend, parent, or roommate pause and think “Am I being abusive?” and look into the mirror for a quick second. Then look at them, is this abusive to that person?
People don’t like thinking this way about them selves, people want to be the good guy.
Think I’m a bitch or a cunt it’s ok with me. I’m just a girl expressing an opinion… people can take it, leave it, hate it, or love it. But it there and it’s my truth.